This evening...I got a whale of lesson that will not be found in any school, any course, or any formal education. It's about how we through our own life without copying the others' life. How we can be ourselves instead of becoming another. It's so simple, isn't it? For those who have their success or reach their dreams even be an important man/woman, they have crossed this stage of the life. They tell us how we can go to the next step with their good words. I'm so amazed with their words. It motivates me to do better. But..amazed is not enough for me. I am a truly lazy girl. When the others do their work energitically, I just watch them. When they look at a new experience, I just sleep in my bedroom. Every day I get nothing. What a pitiful I am. I remember a short limerick created by 9GAG.
Roses are red, violets are blue. Faces like yours belong in the zoo. Don't be mad, I'll be there too. Not in the cage but laughing at you.
It shaked my belly. Come on guys..it's very funny joke! Apparently i couldn't laugh anymore because of a poem given by my lecture in pronounciation class. The tittle was "Be The Best Of Whatever You Are". The deep meaning in the title, just the title, startled me.
Be The Best Of Whatever You Are
By : Douglas Maloch
If you can't be a pine on the top of a hill
Be a scrub in the valley, but be the best little scrub on the side of the hill
Be a bush if you can't be a tree
If you can't be a bush be a bit of the grass
And some highway happier make
If you can't be a muskie, then just be a bass
But the liveliest bass in the lake
We can't all be the captains, we've got to be crew
There's something for all of us here
There's a big work to do and there's lesser work, too
And the thing we must do is the near
If you can't be a highway, then just be a trail
If you can't be the sun, be a star
It isn't by the size that you win or you fail
Be the best of whatever you are
I was embarrased by myself. All of the time, I just created an imagination in my mind, made a whole story and I hope it will happen. I acknowledge I really want to study aboard...in USA or UK. I want to be a student of either a university carrying "Veritas" as its slogan or a university carrying "Hince Lucem Et Pocula Sacra'. I'm sure you are really aware what i am talkin' about. I looked at another people who got their expectations. They could go to foreign country for studying even it just sit in program. They were cool and great! Some of them were a good person. An activist, tutor, etc...How could it be? I kept a question. I'd like to be a useful person like them. But, i just don't know what i should do. I always pray to my God, "God, may you give me Your blessing so that I can study in my dreamed university". I know it was so far but i have just known that i was a stupid girl because of that poem. It hit me until I got my consciousness.
If you can't be a pine on the top of the hill...
Be a scrub in the valley, but be the best little scrub on the side of the hill...
This words opened my eyes.....What exactly am I now? I am not the successfull person but actually i can be the best whatever I am. But, what kind of person can I be?
Then I kept reading...
If you can't be a muskie, then just be a bass, but the liveliest bass in the lake...
Fine...Perhaps, i cannot reach my dream now. If I can't be a muskie then just be a bass, but the liveliest bass in the lake. What does it mean? I'm still curious till I know the meaning of the liveliest. I can't be a great woman like them now...but i can be an ordinary woman, the happiest woman in my own life. I perceive that my truly passion is writing. Yes, I like writing especially for short stories. Yes, writing is my life. When i was in elementary and junior high school, i made some short stories in my book. My friends read my stories and i didn't know why i was so happy at the moment. It was just read by my friends. Furthermore, they asked me when I would write later. I was pleasant. They encouraged me to write several stories. I want that great moment happens in my life again. Now..i know, I maybe isn't a muskie..but i can be the liveliest bass. In writing I find myself and with writing I can be a happier person than my previous days.
Finally, I foud these magic words...
And the thing we must do is the near...
I couldn't say anymore. That's a fact. Of course I still keep my dream to be an international student. I want to get an experience such as studying in a good university, i want it...but for now it is quite difficult. I am not good both in English and in academic qualification. I am not as shrewd as those people. How could I be the student of my dreamed university? Yeah... The thing we must do is the near...and I know I have to improve my English and of course I have to learn. Then.. i get my big dream. It is more than be an international student. I just want to be a useful person for another with my knowledge...
If I don't read the poem properly..I'm certain i don't understand what the meaning is. I'll still laugh at the limerick I told you. But actually it reflects my real condition. I am the stupid one in the cage meanwhile the others, the successfull ones, are laughing at me. "Oh, look...there is a nerd girl wanting to be an international student here, even she is not smart", they yell at me. Yes, they are right and I am wrong. I don't know how my life walks in this savage world. May be I'll just be an ordinary woman and I won't take an overseas studying. May be...but for being a useful person and for being the happiest person in my life are possible. I'll be very happy if I am needed by another.
The thing i can do is the near now. Yeah..doing the near doesn't mean I have to forget my dream. It gives a way then I can use it. I am aware that my step is narrow. I am riding my bycicle, the others are riding their car, train, even a plane. I know my life is the slowest, but this is my life, not theirs. I can be the best whatever I am...